Dont you just love the snow when it is white? Its when it turns to grey slush that soaks your shoes that its awful. I doubt i will go outside today as it is not likely to stay the nice white stuff. I tried to be very positive yesterday and went out to the supermarket. It took me up until 3pm to get up the energy and will to do it, but i did it in the end thats what counts. Partner met me there on his way home from first work to say hi and help me unload from the car before heading off again to return at 8pm have his dinner and chill out. No change in us then! Still feel good that i did the supermarket, seems everyone else had the same idea. It always amazes me the amount of people in them and the stuff being bought.

Todays plan, find a Kitten and also try out a new betting system on racing. It looks like it is proven over time, but i imagen me starting doing it will prove it works no more so sorry for all the other people who are trying it. I will let you know tomorrow how it goes.

Im sat looking at the same rooms that i always look at. There are seven of them and i wander between them, but i rarely venture outside of them. It is not that i do not want to, although sometimes when i do not go outside for a while i can understand how people get to scared to leave their saftey zone. I just do not know anyone here really and i have a young child and a partner that works very hard, leaving little time for me and him. I guess i became a stay at home mum, and now all i do is stay at home. I hate my partner at times because he gets to go out into the real world and speak with adults and make decisions, he says he would love to stay home, but he wouldnt, he says that to make me feel like his world is harder and i guess in someways it is. The thing is his world involves more than these walls and the door at the front and the door at the back and that is were the jealousy kicks in. He cant stay home and i cant leave and i know we cant carry on like this. I guess this is going to be my blog about these walls and my attempt to escape them, my attempt to take some control back from somewhere inside myself. It is time to find out if the walls are to blame or if the rest of it is rotten anyway. Its a new year and hopefully a new start, time to stop living next to each other and start living with each other.